I got to choose and I'm happy with my choice.

I recently read a blog or article (through facebook) bashing stay-at-home-moms. It basically hit every one of my insecurities and cut them wide open. I would reference it, but I don't really want it to get anymore publicity than it all ready has. The main premise of it was anyone can be a stay-at-home-mom and it is no big accomplishment so stop trying to make everyone think it is.  Why did I read it? I don't know.  Why did I keep reading it once I realized what it was saying? I really don't know! But I did...

The areas this article talked about are things I worry about way too often. I worry about feeling like I am worth something and that I am contributing to society and to our family. I stress over the fact that I am not bringing in any money or adding to our financial situation. I worry about people thinking I'm lazy and I sit around the house all day watching TV (or blogging...).

Now I do, watch TV, obviously I blog (though not for any true gain simply for an outlet), I take naps if I get the chance, and I read books when time permits. But then again who doesn't??

I could go on now and completely defend myself as a stay-at-home-mom, and I'm guessing that's what you are expecting.  Well.  no.  I am a stay-at-home-mom and I love it! I am blessed by it and I choose it.

Even after all the negative comments I read by this particular author I came out with one positive thing I want to work on. Complaining! Or better said, Not Complaining. So, there are lots of things I could complain about as I spend my days with babies and toddlers, but I complained just as much back when I was working a paying job. I complained then, I complain now. So it is time to STOP!
Going forward I want to be true to who I am and honest with my friends before having complete meltdowns, yet I want to sponge out the unnecessary complaining about how I choose to spend my days.  I need to focus on the good and funny things my kids do. You know the ones that help me get through my day laughing in stead of crying.  Things such as:


Maya's Choice lunch: chocolate chips
Vs.
Morgan's Choice for lunch: spinach & mayo sandwich

Morning fight: no you can't have candy now eat your chocolate chip waffles. Ok fine have some whip cream on top.

Maya wouldn't wear anything but her sparkly heart pants...and I do mean nothing else.

Morgan complaining that she has to clean up, "why do you give me so many toys its too hard to clean up." (Problem I can solve.) Followed by, "mom! you are being lazy and making me clean." Sigh...

Mercy rolling under, the couch, dinning room table, girls bunk beds, sewing table... You name it she rolls under it....

Maya getting excited we are buying a minivan but sad it's not a "Mickeyvan" or "goofyvan". 

Mercy refusing to nap being miss fussy pants, so I put her in her bouncer and walked away only to hear her laughing to her self... even at 8 months old my kids have it out for me.

Maya calling her self a "Pasta Goober" while shoving pasta in her face.

Mercy learning to crawl and making a b line for the dog bowl every time she is set down, and Laughing as she reaches it and gets a good splash in before I get to her.  

Morgan teaching her sister how to play go fish and getting frustrated that a 3 yr old would rather just play 52 card pick up.  

Spying on all three when they are suppose to be napping and are instead: making a fort, playing with dolls, practicing gymnastic moves, learning to stand up... 

Laughing isn't the only thing reminding me not to complain. Knowing I get to be a big apart of my kids lives while they are young. In the years that go by so fast and once over I can never get back. I choose to spend the time with them. I am lucky enough that our family can afford for me to stay home.

So to conclude... I am done complaining!! Because whether or not I have a paying job, I am lucky that I got to choose. I might not be climbing mount Everest or traveling the world, holding a high paying job (or any paying job), but I got to choose. And I am happy with my choice!